I've been written some diary in English before. But this time I got something funny here, a 5-min transcript, for some scenario like in a soap opera. Now Mark and Franny are quarrelling in a hotel. The problem is they like each other very much, kinda soulmate maybe, but Franny is married to someone else.
M: I know you like me and you know I like you.
F: Yes.
M: So why, why not just give me this one night? I won’t ask for more. You belong to him and I never doubt the bond between you two, I didn’t even think of asking for more.
F: I know, I know, I always know what you think about this.
M: You have that thousands of sweet night with your lucky husband, so why not just have this one sweet night with me?
F: I want you, I want to do this with you very much. But the only reason we cannot do this is because I like you so, so furiously, which will make the one-night sex turn to a very intense memory. I cannot stand it, lie in your arms with him in my mind, and lie in his later with you in my mind. I'll feel disgust about myself, for the rest of my life. This is what I was been afraid of. And you will also hate that kind of me, won’t you?
M: I hated you already when you make me fall in love with you. I don’t mind to hate you more.
F: You are angry about me. Just because of this one-night thing?
M: No I hate your theory about how we should control this love affair as an innocent, pure, and spiritual enjoyment to both of us. You thought you love somebody but actually you love your life more than anything else. You love your future more that you love your now.
F: You are right, this is not about now, this is about the future. But the future is not only my own, it belong to everyone of us.
M: What you can think of is always how to write a perfect memoir for an utterly perfect life. Won’t you just throw away your perfection, for a while, for someone you declaimed you were loving so much?
F: No, you misunderstood me. I never care about perfection. I even never believed in it.
M: Yes you are, you do all these struggling only because you try to get it. Because you don’t have anything better to do.
F: Ok… I can see you already lost that mood. We are quite safe now…Do we have anything better to do than quarreling about having sex or not, to spend this only night together?
M: Yes, to have sex. (Smile)
F: (Smile) I hate to fall in this scenario. We enjoyed each other’s company so much, when we don’t know about the other’s feeling. Now we know, this is supposed to make us happier, to know the one I love also love me.
M: I am happier, I AM.
F: But you have all those demands, this inflammation.
M: I don’t have the right to ask for them before, now I have.
F: …
M: Come on…(approaching Franny)
F: Don’t touch me! DON’T! (step back)
M: You act like you believe in what chastity!
F: I don’t! I don’t believe chastity theoretically. But maybe my body believe it… I haven’t got touched by any other man for many years.
M: Ok… then I should not rush, I'll wait.
F: … Do we just have to move forward? What if we move a little backward?
M: We are not moving forward. We can just enjoy sex.
F: No you know and I know that is not only sex. We won’t want sex with someone we don’t like. If we do it tonight, we are moving forward.
M: Ok then I am trying to move a little bit forward with you. Will you?
F: I am not. I am just not brave enough. I am afraid to lost what I have, the most important thing.
M: You don’t know it.
F: Yeah but the possibility still exists. I don’t care about many many things people care. But if I do care, I will make sure I do it right. I won’t take any risk, no matter how small it is.
M: I see.
F: I am sorry. I guess I just don’t like you enough?
M: It doesn’t matter… I should have known it. Yes I did know it, only I forgot just now. It’s not you didn’t like me enough, it’s because I won’t get hurt if you refuse me. It’s me… I don’t love you enough, far less than he does.
F: Yeah..that’s it. See, now we moved backward already.
isn’t it screwed? 5555… I just watched too much soap opera and love novel recently…
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